I am fucking falling apart.
My hair is falling out. What's left is brittle and dry.
My skin is destroying itself; rough and sickly.
My teeth are so thin that every change in temperature sends pain shooting down the nerves into my skull.
No matter how much I scrub my body, my hands, every crack and crevice of my skin, I still feel a dirty film of sweat and oil and failure all over my body.
The decay is disgusting.
If I could crawl under the blankets and just wait till it's over that would be fucking great.
Or boil myself alive and start from scratch.
sometimes when i went on liquid fasts for more than a few days i would "sweat" out the toxins and i swear to god i smells like melting plastic and armpits! i ended up making a "sugar scrub" for my body and bathed twice a day for a week straight. helped till my stink ran out lol
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